Tue, 20 Aug, 2019

Life Offer Volatile Expectations

By Kundan Shumsher Rana

This four letter word has got me confused What does this mean? Why do I feel this way? I hear people talk about what it means But I just can’t figure it out   I see many poems, books, stories Novels, texts, arts, sculptures That try to capture it Yet I just can’t comprehend it   I see my friends With that special someone Laughing, giggling, smiling, Flirting, fighting, screaming, yelling Frowning But then comes that one brief moment Where it all goes away They look into each others eyes And I can see that they are lost in each other That one single moment that feels like a lifetime I see the spark between them They move in for a kiss But then realize, I’m the third wheel that’s sitting alongside them   Now, what do I say What makes me feel this way What makes me feel so jealous of them Jealous that I don’t have anyone Whose eyes, I can get lost in   People give me advice, but I just don’t know They say, do this, do that Make a funny move using a hat No, you’re doing it wrong   I know, it’s not just the actions But the feeling that goes alongside it The feeling of gentle radiance of the soul to the heart The feeling of having someone When you see that everyone’s gone their way But most importantly The feeling of just wanting to to sit side by side Enjoying each others company   So, what do I say How can I let you know about my feelings They started with a tingling sensation But now have grown into a heartache At first I was fine, just looking at you But now, I just can’t stand not sitting beside you Your smile makes my day, your laugh brings me joy Your frown makes me cry, your sadness makes me blue   I don’t want you to return these feelings But I just want to be a part of your life But even if I say all these things What I truly want is for you to know How I feel about you This giant of a man just “Loves You”